the story of a girl's Journal

2:48pm:
( hi, my dog is cute, maybe cuter then me, possible? yes clearly )

2:19pm:

( muahaha i raided erin's pictures instead of doing homework, so sneaky )

4:14pm: never take your friends forgranted
i hate that this is the reason i know that

we lost a great friend

braden will forever be in my heart

i love you

11:12pm: Be My Friend OR Go Away

3:46pm: "Can you hear me scream...time is standing still"
umm work tonight fo sheezzy...then i guess to the wilton house, our pseudo frat house, hung out with "the dave" yesterday, him and mere are great when theyre together, but all in all i had a pretty rockin night, came home to a near empty house which again = awesome, other then that nothing new, hailey may come to visit, and still i am broke, alright im off gotta hit up tha navy piiieeeer

3:46pm: ( a long long time ago...we took a bunch of pictures )

7:14pm: I LOVE MY LITTLE SIS
"i need a boy. fast. I don't like the recent ones. or do i?? confusion confusion. I'll get new ones just in case i get sick of other ones. it'll be good."
and as for people who suck
including ones up here
you suck and are wasting our air
so die
thank you

1:51pm: "i'll shoot the shot bang that you hear round the world"

12:37pm:

Take the test, by Emily.</p

12:30pm: muahahaha

1:56am: just one more for the night
You look so fine

I want to break your heart
And give you mine
You're taking me over

It's so insane
You've got me tethered and chained
I hear your name
And I'm falling over

I'm not like all the other girls
I can't take it like the other girls
I won't share it like the other girls
That you used to know

You look so fine

Knocked down
Cried out
Been down just to find out
I'm through
Bleeding for you

I'm open wide
I want to take you home
We'll waste some time
You're the only one for me

You look so fine
I'm like the desert tonight
Leave her behind
If you want to show me

I'm not like all the other girls
I won't take it like the other girls
I won't fake it like the other girls
That you used to know

You're taking me over
Over and over
I'm falling over
Over and over

You're taking me over
Drown in me one more time
Hide inside me tonight
Do what you want to do
Just pretend happy end
Let me know let it show

Ending with letting go

Let's pretend, happy end

3:43pm: EDIT: this is a repost and i apologize but they are in fact the only pics i have on the computer and i adore them and they make me smile, dont look if you dont want to ...whore
im kidding
So this is a photo entry
seeing as I just received a cd filled with pictures from my florida life I see it only fitting to post them
look if youd like
ignore this if you desire
but I wouldnt
oh my
pure sex lies beyond this cut

( Rollin’... )

* * jess

8:50pm: so im sitting here with mere listening to "calling your name" being my little fake-raver self, thinking about leeza cause she is the love of my life and this song makes me miss her, ok back to being a dork
until later
ps found out i may not get to voyage to oh for halloween um *tear* and yes goodbye for now
<3 jess

10:40pm: this is one of many sky pics for miss mere

10:30pm: stupid drunk girls
yes i must admit that i was one last evening, however to a sober person now, i want to punch them in the face...
on a lighter note... i met a fun boy...
you know this is you so dont pretend its not
hes a soccer playah i tell you
yup madness
and now im listening to a fun song that mere has sent me
and now im going to go vent about the stupidity of some people rarrrr
yes
i know
i do apologize for being so goddamn intimidating
oh well
o yes and
i took two tylenol pm
fell asleep for all of 8 hrs, just woke up
now im off to sleep again
did i mention i hate life sometimes
yes
ha ok buh bye

3:22pm: m
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3:40pm: i wish i were cool like hailey and posted more often
and i wish that i went to shows
thats it for now

7:06pm: so let's talk about how my mom just let me know that i had to pay for my tuition this month HA yeah so let's go write me a check for $3000 HA, what is she thinking i mean to top it off I've got midterms, yeah and maybe you should ask how much i know about euro history, NOTHING, do you know why??? because my hs euro class was a joke, i want to die

2:38am: work
was ok...didnt think i was going to make it at like 6 but pulled through until 8, went and watched notting hill and fantasized over hugh and british boys with miss molly and mere, came home to no one awake and drank tea, then beer, then i smoked, and now im sleepy, class tomorrow = quiz oh my, if you are hailey...then i will call you when i find my phone because as of last night it is MIA, again i say...oh my
* * jess

12:54pm: all i have to say for now is that
1) im drunk and going to work
2) john cusack is blocks away from my house
3) im going to marry him

thats all
i hate boys too
that 4

9:40pm: im oh so sorry
ive been quite the party pooper as of late and i apologize, then i talked to leeza and i believe the conclusion we came to was that life remained pointless and we can never be truly happy anywhere because that doesnt exist, true happiness that is, ive been listening to brand new 70 times 7 day in and out, and the only thing getting me on to tomorrow (besides my new diet of diet coke, coffee, alcohol, and cigs) is that i get to see taking back sunday and saves the day,no thanks to the lame-o that was SUPPOSED to sell me tickets but eh i got them anyway. I have a midterm tomorrow and what better way to prepare then drown myself in beer, i dont know so thats what im doing. talked to someone from home who will remain nameless who makes me grade-school-giddy, yes, i believe i was told he would "pull a lloyd" (if you dont know dont ask) if he were closer, *sigh*, but besides that i give props to hailey for carrying on my party lifestyle at which i have been slacking, hailey...props, hehe there, oh my i must go for now
this isnt goodbye but until we meet again
* * jess

12:07am: well
at least im strong enough to do this for a year
hailey call me
asap

4:56pm: CHRIS i left my cell at home...i'm at depaul...dont know if i can come visit..party at regina's tonight...you should go...where that green shirt (its a make your own tshirt party), ill be there as soon as i can, if i dont see you earlier ill call as soon as i can, im sorry a thousand times over
gina's house = bissel and armitage (youll see it we were there before)
* * jess

3:08pm: im sitting next to a troll
his names is hair
or andy

7:30pm: does anyone have a gun
sick
uck
see lil sis in like 10 days
but i took dayquil today
it was like an out of body experience
almost as good as drugs
not really
and im still sick